Depression A La Mode

You can't tell me this doesn't make you wanna swallow bullets.

Bullet Proof... I wish I Was / Radiohead

I always feel like somebody's watching meeeeee

lol i'm home alone and scared outta my damn mind. i'm a punk beyotch. i think when everything's calm i crave things to freak out about. no good.

Dropped / Phantom Planet

i thought this band broke up. it made me very sad. apparently they didnt. this is a new video. the lead singer is a hottie. i saw them life and it was splendid. also a funny bunch of guys. look them up on youtube.

Today

felt like sunshine. nothing extraordinary. but i was happy. and a little tingly. and very smiley. odd.

Smiley Faces/ Gnarls Barkley

Dear Blog World..

in case you were wondering, I'm alive. I think. lol.. been hibernating. I do that sometimes. anyway.. i went to dc.. it was beautiful.. the people were.. the obama was.. the air was.. the sidewalks were.. the metro was.. the sky was.. the cold was (even though it bit me)... the mall was.. the litter was.. the fac tthat they STILL put onions on my cheeseburger at mcdonalds was.. beautiful beautiful beautiful. so um. heres a song! and i'll post a poem.

I want to make out with Chris Martin.

Violet Hill / Coldplay

NOTORIOUS

spoiler: Biggie dies at the end.

Warning / Biggie

yeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeah

yeahyeahyeah blah blah blah.

i'm headed out to dc at 7am tomorrow. its gonna be cold. but worth it. i dont have inauguration/parade tickets, but itll be gnarly to be around so many people that like what i like---obama. WORD! im ghost like danny phantom.

Lost!/ Coldplay

so..

I decided to eliminate someone from my life today.. I hate inconsistent people.. which is odd because im highly inconsisent.. but w/e..im sad. i think. or maybe just dissapointed. but i met someone cool today too.. so you know.. it levels out. second chances are meant to be used.. i'm not. baby boy is on in the backround and the girl on the tv won't stfu. two songs .. one for today one for yesterday

He Needs Me / Shelley Duvall


Give Peace A Chance / John Lennon

LISTEN

seriously. turn your volume up, blast it, and pay attention. even if youve never watched a vid on my page before. i feel this shit so hardddd. i love shows like this. so beautiful. let me know if im the only one.

I feel

static.
New Soul / Yael Naim

It's Saturday

My ipods been gone for a few days now. I am going absolutely 100% insane. I need a replacement. & Soon. If you were a 21 year old male, what would you want for your birthday?

a few interesting bjork videos today.. she's great, her videos are sooo unique.

Wanderlust / Bjork

Alarm Call / Bjork

Hunter / Bjork

Hyperballad / Bjork

My iPod is lost.

How
all things
collapse
and
b r e a k
and recoil
and
retreat
and
leave me
is beyond me,
is
something i will never
fully understand.
sound has left me
and i
am sitting silent,
so taken aback by
my own misfortune.
all
i
ever
did
was
love
you.

making life more tolerable..

I feel like shit. my stomach hurts and my head aches and i haven't eaten all day. Mamabear is hooking me up with quesadillas and cabbage (ohh the joys of being multicultured). I'm watching armageddon week on the history channel. shit has me buggin out.. the worlds supposed to end on my dads bday, 2012.. idk though, i think the world AS WE KNOW IT will end, and that things will go apeshit, but im not so sure that everything will explode and dissapear. idk. idk enough to have an opinion. so how are you guys? i'm listening to serj tankian.. (lead singer for system of a down)..the mans got much to say.. i wonder if i have much to say, or if i just say much.. theres a difference. i havent been blogging a lot, probably because ive been keeping two journals. one for thoughts and one for poetry. i'll post some shit from both eventually.. alright kiddos. more than one vid for you guys today.They're all really dope concepts, so watch them.

The Unthinking Majority/ Serj Tankian


Empty Walls / Serj Tankian


Lie Lie Lie / Serj Tankian

Does That Make Me Craaaaaaaaaaaaazy?

your mouth
is a
sword
and
mine is a
mental
ward

Strawberry Fields (Cover of The Beatle's Song) / Whoever The
Hot Guy From Across The Universe Is

Oh New Year's

What a beautiful beautiful year.. I learned so much about myself (probably because i was single the entire year). 2009 will be the first year that i will walk into knowing just who I am, and looking the part. I am expecting WONDERS. I went to so many grea tconcerts in 2008, met so many great people. The future seems infinite. Damn I'm excited.. i don't know why.. its just another day.. But the earth is going to return to where it started on its journey around the sun and it feels like a new beginning, and I am so excited. Everything is spinning. Something great is going to happen in 09. And I am going to find a boy. Or a boy will find me. Goodbye 2008, and thank you.

Foreign & Awkward / Run on Sentence

Last Night..

was my bestfriends birthday. i had a get together for her. it was fun. i smiled alot. when everyone left, i felt satisified. i was stressed all daybut when the party started it was better. it was good to have a bunch of people, who didnt even know eachother, interacting, laughing, learning. made me happy. my dad apologized to me today. it felt good. what a great way to close 08..

This song is by Glass Cake idk what its called though. She's dope.

Parallel Synchronized Randomness

I've been drifting in and out of a state of unprecedented rage. Didn't feel like blogging. The science of sleep is a dope ass movie. here are some clips

Seven Pounds.

I saw that movie today. It was a good ass movie. I wonder if love like that exists. And sacrifices like that.

A Walk Through Hell / Say Anything

MERYY CHRISTMASSS !:)

Helloo World! How were those Christmases of yours? Mine was swell.. got some lovely goods. Guitar lessons was my fav, and some scrilla. lol, my dad called yesterday. he wants me to write his life story for him.. i wonder if i'll be in it. He's supposed to come by today. we shall see we shall see. anyway, how did your day go? let me know.. by the way.. food was baaaaaanging... and since i'm missing the kimya dawson 10 years off the sauce extravaganza today, we'll just post her on my blog

viva la persistence/ kimya dawson

PA RUM PUM PUM PUMMMM IM BUMMEDDD

YO NUKKAS! its christmas time. i'm happy right now.but earlier today and yesterday i was pretty bummed.. dont know why. just out of it. sat in church today, felt evil as fuck. i didnt want to hear anything. but i did. and i ate the jesus, but i didnt drink the wine. (i was raised catholic, so we drink wine & eat communion). it was a weird experience. on the way home, my brother was telling me how he cussed out my dad for some shit that he always does.. lets us down. all i could think about was the many reasons why my father may commit suicide, hoping he doesnt, but knowing there are reasons. i want him to cry.. so id want to hug him. and i want to hug my brother. that's all. merry christmas eve! presents tomorrow ;) ill letcha know what i get.

November Nights / Run On Sentence

Charles Blair

You are 3 years old, and held my hand today. I asked you your name and couldn't decipher your answer, but you were beautiful. We played, and ate cookies, and I let you eat more than three, like the teacher said, because you liked cookies. And you liked me. And when you stood there, giggling at the bubbles blowing and popping and catching them before they pop and giggling some more when you can't catch them, well, i am wondering who you will be when you are 16. 25. 60. if you will make it to 16. 25. 60. if i will make it. never stop being beautiful. never stop smiling when there are buttons, and glitter, and stickers, and bubbles and cookies. never stop smiling.

I Feel Just Like A Child / Devendra Banhart