De La Dom

in case you've been missing me..

2009-04-08T16:47:00.000-04:00

deladomx.tumblr.com

i shouldve said something sooner. haha

holy shit..

2009-03-06T15:48:00.001-05:00

Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.

me next?

Goal:

2009-02-27T17:12:00.000-05:00

start letting go like this:

Hey..

2009-02-24T22:44:00.001-05:00

Isn't everything so fascinating? beautifulbeautifulbeautifulbeatiful. and fucked up at the same time. but nonetheless beautiful

Cuckoo Cuckoo / Animal Collective

observation..

2009-02-23T20:04:00.002-05:00

we either strive to conform and assimilate
or idolize individuality, rebel, and claim to be different.

but we are all the same
no need to try to fit in
and no need to attempt to stand out

because when it comes down to it, don't we all try to find a little bit of ourselves in the person next to us? how else do we decide who is compatible for companionship?

unless your like me.

and just all fucked up.

but then, youd still be LIKE someone, wouldnt you?

idk, none of this matters,
nothing matters.

ill shut up.

I LOST A FOLLOWER TODAY! lol its oay though, i gained some recently. you guys like me, right? no offense, but it wouldnt bother me much if you didnt, personally, i don't like me much. i do love me though, its inevitable.

modest mouse show is sold out. im pissed.

andddd. ive got two versions of a lovely song for you. first, the original , radiohead's "just (you do it to yourself)," and then, mark ronson's spin on it, with a band that i've posted on here a little while ago, phantom planet. tell me which is better.

Life Is..

2009-02-22T20:40:00.001-05:00

love is life is love is life is love is life is love. a bunch of bullshit going on. do you think people can change? don't answer that. tell me something good. something beautiful.i need it.

Cherry Tulips / Headlights

I've got this

2009-02-19T22:01:00.002-05:00

feeling in my fingers and toes recently. I don't know how to describe it but like.. a restlessness. Like my hands and feet want to do much more than they are. To stifle it, i curl my toes up really tight and strain my fingers but its doesn't really work. idk. idk what i should be doing, but sitting still isnt doing it for me. maybe i've got too much excess energy.. but its not even an energy.. its more of a compulsion, like an itch i can't scratch, like something's tickling my blood. lol its making me think of the movie idle hands, which freaked me out in a funny way. anybody know what i'm talking about? anyway.. i have some weird pictures i'll post tomorrow lol.. some childhood ones, and one from a creative writing assignment. i had to make my alter ego, either a supervillain or superhero.. you know me. im the villain >=). so uhh. yeah. bye!

Seven Days Of The Week / They Might Be Giants

why does everyone

2009-02-18T18:03:00.001-05:00

TALK SO LOUDDDDDDDDDD

Trees and Squirrels / Suburban Kids With Biblical Names

OH MY GOD.

2009-02-17T19:45:00.001-05:00

Dear Mary & Nathaniel, Valerie, and Dominique,

Our Admissions Committee has reviewed Dominique's application for our Community Service program in Tanzania this summer and we are delighted to accept Dominique for the program

HAPPINESS HAS SWALLOWED ME WHOLE I SWEAR IT.

My Brain Is Alive

2009-02-16T14:38:00.001-05:00

My review: ":)"

quiet..

2009-02-16T00:32:00.002-05:00

so theres much in my head. and much to be said. but words arent working right now so you know.. i think ill try this again when im more awake. had a very chill day. tomorrow i am roaming philly. my brother doesnt live with me anymore. its a hollow feeling. a miserable feeling. but i smile. anyway.. i'll blog tomorrow.

smitty, thank you. i get it. and i dont think your crazy. insanity is the only sanity. and the song was very sweet. lovely valentine.

Im Baaaaaaaaack

2009-02-15T01:51:00.003-05:00

So if there's anything that all of my friends know about me, its that sometimes i disappear. i just stop talking to people. don't know why, just something i do. but im back. and today was valentines day. and it sucked. family issues, and complications with other things, but i had a bunch of friends over and we hit up the dominoe's 555 deal, watched a bunch of movies, and hung out. and one of them is knocked out on my couch right now because i'm neglecting her to blog. so i feel good. really good. and im going to go to sleep, and im going to post some poetry tomorrow. and i am alive. and ill be ok. and everything will be ok. i think. even if my math scores on the SAT sucked penis. i'm ok.

p.s. smitty, i'm a little late with my response. but you wouldve been a lovely blog valentine lol, even though im cursed when it comes to valentines..something bad always happens

no song. im too lazy to go to youtube. but you know, id probably just recycle the happy valentine's day song by outkast, so scroll down to a previous blog and listen.

Bonnaroo Music & Arts Festival

2009-02-03T16:28:00.003-05:00

Seriously, who'se down for a road trip!?!! I'm determined to get there.

Superfly Productions and A.C.
Entertainment are excited to announce the
initial lineup for the 2009 Bonnaroo Music and Arts Festival.
The
eighth annual four-day camping and music festival will be held on June
11 - 14 on the same beautiful 700-acre farm in Manchester, Tennessee,
60 miles south of Nashville.
Every year Bonnaroo seeks to make history
by offering unique and exclusive performances by rock’s greatest
legends as well as its most significant newcomers.
A full list of
confirmed acts follows, and more will be announced in the coming weeks.

The final Bonnaroo 2009 lineup will total over 120 bands and over 20
comedians performing on 13 stages over four days.
Tickets go on sale
exclusively through www. bonnaroo. com on Saturday, February 7 at 12:00 PM Eastern.

Official festival website is www. bonnaroo. com

2009 Bonnaroo Music and Arts Festival Confirmed Artists (so far):
Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band

Phish (2 Shows)

Beastie Boys

Nine Inch Nails

David Byrne

Wilco

Al Green

Snoop Dogg

Elvis Costello Solo

Erykah Badu

Paul Oakenfold

Ben Harper and Relentless7

The Mars Volta

TV on the Radio

Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Gov’t Mule

Andrew Bird

Band of Horses

Merle Haggard

MGMT

moe.

The Decemberists

Girl Talk

Bon Iver

Béla Fleck & Toumani Diabate

Rodrigo y Gabriela

Galactic

The Del McCoury Band

of Montreal

Allen Toussaint

Coheed and Cambria

Booker T & the DBTs

David Grisman Quintet

Lucinda Williams

Animal Collective

Gomez

Neko Case

Down

Jenny Lewis

Santogold

Robert Earl Keen

Citizen Cope

Femi Kuti and the Positive Force

The Ting Tings

Robyn Hitchcock & The Venus 3

Grace Potter and the Nocturnals

Kaki King

Grizzly Bear

King Sunny Adé

Okkervil River

St.

Vincent

Zac Brown Band

Raphael Saadiq

Ted Leo and the Pharmacists

Crystal Castles

Tift Merritt

Brett Dennen

Mike Farris and the Roseland Rhythm Revue

Toubab Krewe

People Under the Stairs

Alejandro Escovedo

Vieux Farka Touré

Elvis Perkins In Dearland

Cherryholmes

Yeasayer

Todd Snider

Chairlift

Portugal. The Man.

The SteelDrivers

Midnite

The Knux

The Low Anthem

Delta Spirit

A.A.

Bondy

The Lovell Sisters

Alberta Cross

sigh...

2009-02-01T13:29:00.004-05:00

if he's not coming to me, my older brother and i are going to him. about to drive over there.. i'll give you details later. happy sunday!

p.s. thanks smitty.

To keep you updated..

2009-01-31T23:17:00.001-05:00

he didn't come.

Death seems to be the easiest part of life..

2009-01-31T17:27:00.002-05:00

My dad's supposed to be coming over today, with my little brother. I have my fingers crossed that he shows, because im missing my friends concert tonight in hopes that my dad comes.. blahhh. byeee.

Still Got Love For You / Beanie Sigel & Jay-Z

I feel like

2009-01-30T17:45:00.002-05:00

tasting the world. i wonder if itd be processed and have mad chemicals known to cause cancer.. or if itd be bitter on the surface but sweet when you really bite into it. i wonder if it comes in 7 flavors.. one for each continent. maybe the stars are sugar coating like.. the shit on sour patch kids. fuck it i want to taste the universe. im not sure whether the sun would taste like egg yolk or butterscotch or big red. my creative writing teacher told me i was a star in a past life, and that when i die i just may become a nebula.. or a fruit bat. i just want to be able to make art in my next life. by the way, i used to post pictures on here all the time. this is a picture of me from yesterday. in case you forgot. lol.

I Can't Explain / The Who

Who Wants To

2009-01-28T12:28:00.003-05:00

Be My Valentine?

Happy Valentine's Day / Andre 3000

Also

2009-01-26T21:37:00.002-05:00

This house is ssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.

Leaf House / Animal Collective

Sometimes

2009-01-26T21:34:00.002-05:00

I can't find my good habits.

Who Could Win A Rabbit? / Animal Collective

Depression A La Mode

2009-01-26T16:22:00.001-05:00

You can't tell me this doesn't make you wanna swallow bullets.

Bullet Proof... I wish I Was / Radiohead

I always feel like somebody's watching meeeeee

2009-01-26T16:05:00.004-05:00

lol i'm home alone and scared outta my damn mind. i'm a punk beyotch. i think when everything's calm i crave things to freak out about. no good.

Dropped / Phantom Planet

i thought this band broke up. it made me very sad. apparently they didnt. this is a new video. the lead singer is a hottie. i saw them life and it was splendid. also a funny bunch of guys. look them up on youtube.

Today

2009-01-25T21:40:00.003-05:00

felt like sunshine. nothing extraordinary. but i was happy. and a little tingly. and very smiley. odd.

Smiley Faces/ Gnarls Barkley

Dear Blog World..

2009-01-25T13:05:00.003-05:00

in case you were wondering, I'm alive. I think. lol.. been hibernating. I do that sometimes. anyway.. i went to dc.. it was beautiful.. the people were.. the obama was.. the air was.. the sidewalks were.. the metro was.. the sky was.. the cold was (even though it bit me)... the mall was.. the litter was.. the fac tthat they STILL put onions on my cheeseburger at mcdonalds was.. beautiful beautiful beautiful. so um. heres a song! and i'll post a poem.

I want to make out with Chris Martin.

Violet Hill / Coldplay

NOTORIOUS

2009-01-18T21:10:00.002-05:00

spoiler: Biggie dies at the end.

Warning / Biggie

yeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeah

2009-01-18T21:03:00.003-05:00

yeahyeahyeah blah blah blah.

i'm headed out to dc at 7am tomorrow. its gonna be cold. but worth it. i dont have inauguration/parade tickets, but itll be gnarly to be around so many people that like what i like---obama. WORD! im ghost like danny phantom.

Lost!/ Coldplay

so..

2009-01-18T00:52:00.002-05:00

I decided to eliminate someone from my life today.. I hate inconsistent people.. which is odd because im highly inconsisent.. but w/e..im sad. i think. or maybe just dissapointed. but i met someone cool today too.. so you know.. it levels out. second chances are meant to be used.. i'm not. baby boy is on in the backround and the girl on the tv won't stfu. two songs .. one for today one for yesterday

He Needs Me / Shelley Duvall

Give Peace A Chance / John Lennon

LISTEN

2009-01-14T21:52:00.001-05:00

seriously. turn your volume up, blast it, and pay attention. even if youve never watched a vid on my page before. i feel this shit so hardddd. i love shows like this. so beautiful. let me know if im the only one.

I feel

2009-01-10T15:45:00.002-05:00

static.
New Soul / Yael Naim

It's Saturday

2009-01-10T15:32:00.002-05:00

My ipods been gone for a few days now. I am going absolutely 100% insane. I need a replacement. & Soon. If you were a 21 year old male, what would you want for your birthday?

a few interesting bjork videos today.. she's great, her videos are sooo unique.

Wanderlust / Bjork

Alarm Call / Bjork

Hunter / Bjork

Hyperballad / Bjork

My iPod is lost.

2009-01-07T21:28:00.003-05:00

How
all things
collapse
and
b r e a k
and recoil
and
retreat
and
leave me
is beyond me,
is
something i will never
fully understand.
sound has left me
and i
am sitting silent,
so taken aback by
my own misfortune.
all
i
ever
did
was
love
you.

making life more tolerable..

2009-01-07T18:16:00.005-05:00

I feel like shit. my stomach hurts and my head aches and i haven't eaten all day. Mamabear is hooking me up with quesadillas and cabbage (ohh the joys of being multicultured). I'm watching armageddon week on the history channel. shit has me buggin out.. the worlds supposed to end on my dads bday, 2012.. idk though, i think the world AS WE KNOW IT will end, and that things will go apeshit, but im not so sure that everything will explode and dissapear. idk. idk enough to have an opinion. so how are you guys? i'm listening to serj tankian.. (lead singer for system of a down)..the mans got much to say.. i wonder if i have much to say, or if i just say much.. theres a difference. i havent been blogging a lot, probably because ive been keeping two journals. one for thoughts and one for poetry. i'll post some shit from both eventually.. alright kiddos. more than one vid for you guys today.They're all really dope concepts, so watch them.

The Unthinking Majority/ Serj Tankian

Empty Walls / Serj Tankian

Lie Lie Lie / Serj Tankian

Does That Make Me Craaaaaaaaaaaaazy?

2009-01-06T23:04:00.005-05:00

your mouth
is a
sword
and
mine is a
mental
ward

Strawberry Fields (Cover of The Beatle's Song) / Whoever The
Hot Guy From Across The Universe Is

Oh New Year's

2008-12-31T17:29:00.002-05:00

What a beautiful beautiful year.. I learned so much about myself (probably because i was single the entire year). 2009 will be the first year that i will walk into knowing just who I am, and looking the part. I am expecting WONDERS. I went to so many grea tconcerts in 2008, met so many great people. The future seems infinite. Damn I'm excited.. i don't know why.. its just another day.. But the earth is going to return to where it started on its journey around the sun and it feels like a new beginning, and I am so excited. Everything is spinning. Something great is going to happen in 09. And I am going to find a boy. Or a boy will find me. Goodbye 2008, and thank you.

Foreign & Awkward / Run on Sentence

Last Night..

2008-12-31T17:17:00.002-05:00

was my bestfriends birthday. i had a get together for her. it was fun. i smiled alot. when everyone left, i felt satisified. i was stressed all daybut when the party started it was better. it was good to have a bunch of people, who didnt even know eachother, interacting, laughing, learning. made me happy. my dad apologized to me today. it felt good. what a great way to close 08..

This song is by Glass Cake idk what its called though. She's dope.

Parallel Synchronized Randomness

2008-12-29T16:26:00.003-05:00

I've been drifting in and out of a state of unprecedented rage. Didn't feel like blogging. The science of sleep is a dope ass movie. here are some clips

Seven Pounds.

2008-12-26T22:58:00.001-05:00

I saw that movie today. It was a good ass movie. I wonder if love like that exists. And sacrifices like that.

A Walk Through Hell / Say Anything

MERYY CHRISTMASSS !:)

2008-12-26T13:23:00.002-05:00

Helloo World! How were those Christmases of yours? Mine was swell.. got some lovely goods. Guitar lessons was my fav, and some scrilla. lol, my dad called yesterday. he wants me to write his life story for him.. i wonder if i'll be in it. He's supposed to come by today. we shall see we shall see. anyway, how did your day go? let me know.. by the way.. food was baaaaaanging... and since i'm missing the kimya dawson 10 years off the sauce extravaganza today, we'll just post her on my blog

viva la persistence/ kimya dawson

PA RUM PUM PUM PUMMMM IM BUMMEDDD

2008-12-24T20:45:00.002-05:00

YO NUKKAS! its christmas time. i'm happy right now.but earlier today and yesterday i was pretty bummed.. dont know why. just out of it. sat in church today, felt evil as fuck. i didnt want to hear anything. but i did. and i ate the jesus, but i didnt drink the wine. (i was raised catholic, so we drink wine & eat communion). it was a weird experience. on the way home, my brother was telling me how he cussed out my dad for some shit that he always does.. lets us down. all i could think about was the many reasons why my father may commit suicide, hoping he doesnt, but knowing there are reasons. i want him to cry.. so id want to hug him. and i want to hug my brother. that's all. merry christmas eve! presents tomorrow ;) ill letcha know what i get.

November Nights / Run On Sentence

Charles Blair

2008-12-22T20:24:00.004-05:00

You are 3 years old, and held my hand today. I asked you your name and couldn't decipher your answer, but you were beautiful. We played, and ate cookies, and I let you eat more than three, like the teacher said, because you liked cookies. And you liked me. And when you stood there, giggling at the bubbles blowing and popping and catching them before they pop and giggling some more when you can't catch them, well, i am wondering who you will be when you are 16. 25. 60. if you will make it to 16. 25. 60. if i will make it. never stop being beautiful. never stop smiling when there are buttons, and glitter, and stickers, and bubbles and cookies. never stop smiling.

I Feel Just Like A Child / Devendra Banhart

Vow.

2008-12-22T20:21:00.002-05:00

Today, I walked home. My footprints from friday were frozen over in the mud. I stepped in them. I refuse to be cold here. I refuse to be stuck here.

In Our Talons / Bowerbirds

Oh, Leroy..

2008-12-22T20:20:00.000-05:00

sometimes, i shoot stars. i stalk them first, watch every night, whisper my wishes to the wind. she carries them to my prey. I wait. she does not return. i am angry. it always winds up this way. i take the fire in my lungs and scream bullets into space. time. space. time. space. time. its so beautiful when the stars squirm about in the sky, dodging my wrath. Oh, but i get them. And they fall. And i catch them on my tongue and swallow my own deceased dreams, allowing them to seep into my bloodstream. The heat warms my frozen fingers and I. Make. Art. From. Pain. their pain and my pain. their pain. my pain. their pain: my pain.

DANCEDANCEDANCE

2008-12-21T01:32:00.002-05:00

Shit. Damn. MothaFuckaaaa

2008-12-20T12:44:00.001-05:00

#$%(&!@$^*&%&!!! i got like 8947163 christmas presents to buy people and no fuckin money. this should be interesting. im gonna limit that list to like four, and everyone else can have cookies. sound good? cool. knew it would.

Santa's Rap / Treacherous Three (yes yes, this shit is from beat street)

blahlbahlblahblah

2008-12-18T20:16:00.003-05:00

#$^!#@(^@(^ i wrote this just now in a myspace bulletin. i dont have anywhere to save it. this will do

there used to be
flowers
everywhere.

used to be,
meaning
five minutes ago,
when i was happy.

not like
now,
when i am thinking
of you,
crying as a little boy,
unsure of who you
are.

unsure,
as you are
now.

i
am
still
here.

you,
are a creator.

Daniel / Joss Stone

Yesterday

2008-12-18T19:46:00.002-05:00

I slept and slept and slept and slept and slept and watched and watched. Today i am so alive. Ive been dancing. Things are repeating. Things are repeating. Things are repeating. But I know it'll be ok. It'll be ok.

Inside A Boy / My Brightest Diamond

Kind Strangers..

2008-12-16T20:54:00.003-05:00

Whoever the anonymous person was that sent me the article. thank you, i loved reading it, i hadn't seen it until you sent it, i didn't even know he had a new album. YAYYY! i'm amped now. comment more often stranger :)

MARIJUANAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

2008-12-16T17:02:00.002-05:00

This has been in my head all day:

Moist Vagina / Nirvana

Journal..

2008-12-15T21:44:00.003-05:00

So, I found this journal with flowers on it that I had from a little while ago and only wrote one poem in. I tore the poem out, and I'm using it again, because for the time being i am fixated on all things flower infested. Real flowers don't really move me though. So, I'm just going to jot down random thoughts that i have throughout the day, and then post them on here, bc its easier than remembering all of the thoughts i've had during the day when i get home. So here's what I wrote today.(When I skip lines it means its a seperate thought at a seperate time of day.)

The earth is moving. The sky stays the same. The leaveless trees, the gates, the trucks, the signs, the lines, they spin. All spinning in a straight line. The sky, it stays the same. I am staring, wondering if i'd still move if the car stopped and nothing stopped me. I'd move. In a straight line,yes.

For the first time ever in class, everyone sat silent, moved by the same sound.

All of the signs tell me to slow down. I refuse to. More signs. No change. No accident.

There is not enough time in the world. There is not enough time to divide among us in the world.

Bukowski / Modest Mouse

So Fucking Cool!

2008-12-14T20:44:00.002-05:00

I want a Theremin

If I Could Be Anything..

2008-12-13T23:27:00.002-05:00

I'd want to be a cigarette. I'm happy right now.

Now Its Done / Straylight Run

So..

2008-12-12T16:23:00.003-05:00

I don't have much to say today, except that I wish I never really felt anything at all. I regret that. Feeling. Not physically, but emotionally. I never dreamed these things would hurt.. but they do, I overestimated my chances.

Just Like The Movies (Idk what video this is, listen to the song)/ Regina Spektor

Haunted.

2008-12-11T20:35:00.002-05:00

I almost smiled, but I remembered instead.

(thanks john for the song)
Me And My Friend / Julie Doiron

Winter.

2008-12-11T17:17:00.002-05:00

Winter is bumming me out. I think its the monotony of the white that is covering everything. No, it can't be that, It's been raining, not snowing. I like rain. I don't know. I've just been out of it lately. In springtime, I'll smile..& they say beware of those who change with the seasons. >=) Watch out for me world.

White Winter Hymnal / Fleet Foxes

Spiders.

2008-12-11T17:09:00.002-05:00

There are spiders in my house. I want to let them live, I want to let them walk around on all eight of their little free legs, but I am afraid I can not trust them. What if one bites me? What if one crawls in my mouth as I sleep (I've heard more than once that the average person swallows 8 spiders in a lifetime). I killed one with a hammer. I threw a hole puncher at another. The hole puncher is broken, and there are remnants on my desk.

Little Yellow Spider / Devendra Banhart

Poets

2008-12-10T16:56:00.002-05:00

Today, some English teacher told me that in order to be a poet, one must study poetry, read a lot of it, and imitate the proper styles exhibited. If you don't, then you are a writer and not a poet. She says it takes a long time to be a poet. I wanted to backhand her, because I know that somewhere, in some town, students are listening to her, and believing her. Who did the ancient poets study and imitate? Poetry can't be defined, and neither can a poet. The universe is poetry, and those that choose to write down what it recites to us are the poets. Anyway.. I wrote some things in class today. I couldn't focus.. zoned out staring at some girls hair in front of me. here:

The Half Grown Hair

The dead parts poured
from your head,
untame, whipping
the air.
they bent
and blew
when i blew
life
from these lungs and lips
of mine.
as i ponder
in my seat
behind you,
i am noticing a split
at the tips of certains strands.
like me,
half headed for heaven,
half craving hell,
i know not where death
will take me.

yeahh.here's another:

Sympathy For The Rapist
I want to force you
to love me
til you succumb
and
do it by choice.
I want yo to see
and feel
me from the inside.

This, is a crime.

Sounds for you.

The Futile / Say Anything

God Or Whoever The Fuck Is Listening..

2008-12-09T20:31:00.002-05:00

No picture. Just words.

For once in my life all I want is fucking clarity. 2009 will be the year that I clear things up. Not for all of you. For all of you, things about me may get a bit confusing. But as for me, I am going to figure out who the fuck I am, why the fuck I'm here, and what the fuck I'm going to do. I feel so fucking empty.

yes I say fuck a lot.

Closer / Nine Inch Nails

I've Come To Realize..

2008-12-09T18:50:00.002-05:00

I Like This Survey.

1. I've come to realize that my boobs......
will never sag.

2. I've come to realize that my job...
is to be heard.

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...
i am likely to blast folk music.

4. I've come to realize that I need...
alone time.

5. I've come to realize that my heart...
makes its presence known by the constant pounding against the skin on my right wrist just below my thumb.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when..
i am misinterpreted.

7. I've come to realize that when I'm drunk...
i am not myself.

8. I've come to realize that money...
fucks things up.

9. I've come to realize that certain people...
are more similar than i had anticipated.

10. I've come to realize that I'll never be...
defined.

11. I've come to realize drugs are...
ok for some, just not my father.

12. I've come to realize that my best friends...
are more than i deserve.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone..
is determined to die.

14. I've come to realize when I woke up this morning...
I made it through the night.

15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...
i was waiting.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about...
something beautiful in entirety.

17. I've come to realize that when I get on Myspace...
it is for sound.

18. I've come to realize that yesterday...
is still here.

19. I've come to realize that today...
won't leave me.

20. I've come to realize that tonight...
will be tough.

21. I have come to realize that tomorrow...
will be different.

22. I've come to realize that I really want to...
make music.

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to re-post this...
wants someone to listen.

24. I've come to realize that I love...
art.

25. I've come to realize that this weekend....
won't last long enough.

26. I've realized the best music to listen to when I am upset...
is on my ipod.

27. I've come to realize that some people.,...
understand.

28. I've come to realize that this year...
i awoke.

Orange Moon (well, a piece of it) / Erykah Badu

Fleeting.

2008-12-09T18:16:00.005-05:00

I Am Here.

sometimes.

I don't want to be colorful ever again.

Diamond Day / Vashti Bunyan

Old Photographs..

2008-12-08T21:09:00.003-05:00

I used to have hair. And someone to makeout with. I rid myself of both, and I smile a lot more now. I am my own Delilah. The word photograph sounds mathematical.. like a graph.. I suck at math. I suck at logic.

Samson / Regina Spektor

Mondays

2008-12-08T20:46:00.001-05:00

I'm starting to realize who i am, and that is definitely tripping me out. My iPod loves to distract me when I need it to.

Music Is My Hot Hot Sex / CSS

Girl, Interrupted

2008-12-08T19:23:00.002-05:00

Favorite movie. Ever. Just came to this conclusion lol
"Was I ever crazy? Maybe. Or maybe life is... Crazy isn't being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It's you or me amplified."
Word.

Ice Cream Scene / Girl, Interrupted (1999)

My Favorite Scent:

2008-12-08T16:42:00.001-05:00

After It Rains.. And I walk out side.. Yeah.. That's my favorite scent.

When It Rains / Maria Mena

Well I Sit Inside My Room Inside My House Inside My Head..

2008-12-08T15:40:00.006-05:00

When I awoke, the orange sky was scattered with violet clouds, underlined in hot pink. I think thats what god looks like. Someone else said the sight looked like cellulite.

I was sitting in a car, and I couldn't stop daydreaming about it flipping over. I didn't have my seatbelt on, but I am convinced that I wouldn't have fallen onto the ceiling. We ran over a curb.

I was looking at the ceiling of a room I was in, and it seemed as if there were infinite cement blocks on top of it, and that if I wanted to break through it, I couldn't. I wished I were a super hero. Then I took it back.

I tried to explain my philosophy that fact is nothing more than the majority's perception, and that it is never anyone's place to tell another that he/she is wrong. I think my listeners got it. I smiled a little.

I decided I was hollow. Then my stomach thumped and my brain ached.

If our palms hold our futures, and we hold hands, is our future in eachother's hands? I haven't held hands with someone in months.. maybe I hold my own future. That scares me.

The Dead 60s / You're Not The Law

Moving Pictures..

2008-12-07T19:23:00.004-05:00

So.. I noticed my blog makes me seem a bit like..bummed. A lot. I am, but this is me in my natural element. Youtubes of yours truly:

In The Car Being Nutty.:

Technological Withdrawal.

2008-12-07T14:16:00.004-05:00

My computer is refusing to recognize my iPod. It will not charge. I can not update it. It is almost dead. My cell phone has died, and i have managed to break two chargers. I am going INSANE.

Fitter, Happier/ Radiohead

What I Want For Christmas

2008-12-06T20:18:00.005-05:00

This Will Make My Fucking Life. It's beautiful. I was playing with it in the music store the other day.

Fender Banjo FB59

some random music/ some random guy

All Around Me Are Familiar Faces..

2008-12-06T19:46:00.003-05:00

I am watching mindhunter.. or something like that, on msnbc. They go into the mind of serial killers. Talk to them, hear them out. Then basically analyze what they say when they aren't in the room and call them nuts. I am listening to them.. and they have logic in their reasoning, and they are confident in their logic, and they sound like.. people i've heard before. So confident in their false beliefs..but then again, who am i to tell them they are wrong? maybe they know something i don't know..

Mad World / Gary Jules

Lame.

2008-12-06T17:49:00.006-05:00

People are way too sensitive and dependent these days.. or maybe I'm just too cold. Either way, I don't care about a lot. I noticed that today. I got the second highest award you could get at the competition. I didn't smile, I just went to get chicken fingers. I think its because it was a really old poem, that does not represent who I am, nor what I believe anymore. It was militant as fuck. I think I wasn't proud of myself because I wrote the poem for an audience, and not for myself. I knew they'd like it, but it has no connection them liking me, because the poem was not me. I feel like a sell out. So anyway, damn, I need to get out of new jersey for a bit. I'm getting antsy here. Any ideas on where to go? Here
s a poem for the moment!

even if i left here,
i'd have no where to go.
no place called home.
no place like home in my chest,
I am heartless.

unblessed,
no rest,
just stress.
just one huge, fucking mess.
chaos dressed
in serenity.
i am my own worst enemy.

Let me know what you think.

Moving on, I hate my fucking life for not being at this show. I would've seriously spazzed in a fit of excitement. for those who dont know, Saul Williams is my idol. All time favorite poet, better than the dead ones to me. Great fucking music. And if that doesn't sell him..he's married to Persia White. Anway, peep this version of Black Stacey w/ Matisyahu. oh my fuck.

Black Stacey / Saul Williams ft. Matisyahu

See, Hear, And Am Silent

2008-12-05T23:15:00.003-05:00

I am in my old town. I ran into a bunch of old faces. It was awkward. I am different. Very different. In a good way though. I wish I lived in New York. Concerts..and people..Long Walks..and people..Good Food.. and people..Less Cow Manure Scent..and people.. Less Small Town Gossip..and people..Less Monotony.. and people..did i mention people? lmaooo, im trippin, i'm going to bed now, I got a competition I'm reciting poetry at tomorrow. =O Oh lawddd. I'm not really amped, bc i'm not really afrocentric.. and it's that kindof competition. Just trying to work on my public speaking. Goodnight world ;)

I Believe In A Thing Called Love / The Darkness

(random, i know)

Look Ma, No Plans!

2008-12-04T20:22:00.006-05:00

It feels good to not have anything planned, but everything going for me. As much as i bitch about the world, it is on my side. As much as i neglect to stare at the stars, they are moving in my favor. I'm one smiley muthafxcka.

He Doesn't Know Why / Okay, This is a Cover, by my friend Andrew (Big Red Marbles), But The Song Is By Fleet Foxes

I like his version better. Song of the moment:

Middle Class Mass--Suicide.

2008-12-04T20:04:00.005-05:00

UHh.. wrote this in my head as i was walking home looking at garages on the cookie cutter houses in my town.

Middle Class Mass--Suicide
They sit,
caged,
in their two car garages,
in their two door cars,
with the engines all running,
and the lungs all stalling.
all of the town(home)'s people are
exhausted.

hahaha. i'm morbid.

Toxicity / System Of A Down

$#!^*)$(#!@

2008-12-04T16:59:00.003-05:00

It is hard for me not to be angry. It is even harder for me to break bread with those who have starved me.

Thrasher / N.E.R.D

Hey Hey Yo Yo My My.

2008-12-04T16:14:00.003-05:00

I want to talk to strangers. DK put me on this track a while ago.

Can I Get Get Get / Junior Senior

Nigga do you know what time it is?

2008-12-03T20:01:00.003-05:00

I need a nap. These headaches are really starting to piss me off. The purpose of this post is this song. The shit just haunts me sometimes. Its one of the first rap songs that stuck out to me as genuine and honest.
Suicidal Thoughts / Notorious B.I.G

The Ocean Breathes Salty.

2008-12-03T15:30:00.003-05:00

One day, I was at the beach. A masked man on the boardwalk gave me a song I once knew. He gave me it to hum, to hold, to wrap myself in, to crave, to ponder, to analyze, to listen to, to search for, to remember to, to move to. I gave him a dollar. I suck. This is the song.

Tom's Diner / Suzanne Vega

Do You Want To Buy Me Lunch?

2008-12-03T11:44:00.003-05:00

I skipped lunch to write. Too broke for that shit. I'm at the library. I have some poetry on my account for school, that I don't have at home. It's mostly stuff I had to write for assignments. Here's one.We had to write about powdering our noses with an axe. Enjoy.

The Family Nose

When I look at myself
When I see myself
I am smacked
in the face
with the scent of
smallpox blankets
and tight gripped nooses
and emaciated children
and religious persecution
and sugar cane cells
and broken wishing wells
and my father.
And I
Am thoroughly disgusted
by the pain my beauty upholds.
All the silent stepped on souls.
God knows
if these hands were blessed with an axe
I would hack
and hack
And HACK
until my ancestry went unexposed
By the bones that compose my nose.

That's it for now children. Here's a song to match the moment. LET'S PLAY!

Buy Me Lunch / Crac (Blu & Ta'raach)

Ba Ba Ba Ba..This is The Sound of Settling

2008-12-02T22:37:00.003-05:00

If I wore what i ward in my mind, the world would write me warped, as if they're sane for worshiping war.

Soul Meets Body / Death Cab For Cutie

My Thoughts Were So Loud I Couldn't Hear My Mouth

2008-12-02T21:38:00.005-05:00

It's one of those days where I'm spending most of my time inside my head again. I read this thing about my birthday, and what it means, and my character, and I don't know. It said my primary aim is to find a balance between acting in aggression and my desire for peace and harmony. I suppose that's me. I think I'm trying to find a balance between the extrovert and the introvert. But whatevvv. Apparently because the day of the month that it falls on adds up to six, I am artistically, creatively, musically, and imaginatively inclined. Go figure. Minus the little funk I'm in, today felt good. really good. I've decided i want a tatoo where my pulse is just below my thumb in my write wrist. I was listening today, and it sounds like poetry. Do you know what else looks like poetry? When you are on the highway, try to make your eyes fade out.. like when you cross them, because when the lights blur, oh my goodness it is fucking beautiful. I took a picture, i shook my camera up as I was taking it for the blurred effect. Here,

Everything has its own beauty. Everything.

Flashing Lights / Colin Munroe

I Just. Want. Quiet

2008-12-02T21:30:00.003-05:00

I wish I could select sounds. Rather than hearing people attempt to talk over one another, or scream to get another's attention, i would make a person's voice a drum, and another's a keytar, and another a harp, and another a violin, and they would fucking play, really, really loudly, and I'd sing, instead of covering my ears and mouth like i do at the sound of rising human voices. I'm so fucking sick of the same sounds every day. It's driving me insane. All I really want to hear right now is music. That's it.

The World At Large / Modest Mouse

So much to say ..

2008-12-02T21:01:00.002-05:00

I don't even know where to start. I just got home. It's been a long day, full of thought. Last night, i was thinking about my brain. Like, picture a brain, sitting on a table. Where the hell do the thoughts go? Is the ball of matter just a bunch of compacted words and images, or is it like.. a shell, hollowed out, with a bunch of things floating around inside. It intrigues me. When you die, is it just like the power went out? like "DRZOOOOOM"(Thats me pulling the plug on my laptop, which totally doesn't work without a plug). Idk, the mind should be the 8th wonder of the world, although I think Leroy is. Anyway, Tunage for you.
What We Have Known / Joanna Newsom

Your whole being is beautiful..

2008-12-01T22:12:00.003-05:00

I feel fucking beautiful. Not in the sense of.. look at me, I'm gorgeous, but more like, my existence is beautiful. I was sitting in Barne's & Nobles, reading this book about poets and poetry, drinking hot chocolate (but looking cool like a coffee drinker), listening to music in my head, and i realized that i, am indeed, fucking beautiful. Or my mind is. I'm glad my mind isn't like the rest of the world.. it just seems like a miserable existence. I don't know where life is going to take me.. but I know that the abstract nature of my mind will not go to waste, and that i WILL be heard, and that comforts me. Lmao, by the way, you ever like.. identify with a stereotype and like it? i'm sitting at b&n drinking my starbucks, reading, and with an outfit that makes no fucking sense on, and ipod in hand, coming up with my classic scatterbrained philosophies, thinking "damn, i'm intellectual as fuck" haha. then i laughed at myself, and realized how much i hate school. i like educating myself by listening to people. well, listening to people who speak without the intention of teaching, they just do. whoa, my eyes are playing tricks on me. everything keeps blurring in and out, and it looks like the keys were sliding off of the laptop for a second. I'm gonna sleep. Until Tomorrow, this is for you. Yes, YOU! :) You don't know me too well, sir, but if you keep reading, you will.

Corner Of Your Heart / Ingrid Michaelson

The World Is Very Sexy

2008-12-01T15:48:00.004-05:00

Its Mondaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay (sing as if singing "its moooorning" [see "As We Lay" by Shirley Murdock]). I think I'm happy. Idk. The work part of today is over, and now I'm chilling listening to bjork. I'm worrying my mom. She says she woke up at 3am last night worried that she'll have to see my dream of getting accepted to the right college go out the window because of my work ethic. I didn't have the guts to tell her that college isn't my dream. I want to be a nebula :D. lol.. for serious. But yeah, last night we put up christmas decorations. It was pretty cool. i've always liked watching more than doing it, so I DJ'ed. I played christmas tunes from southpark and family guy, making my brother and frank laugh, and mamabear scowllll. >=) Then I switched to Mos Def (singing, not rapping), Charles Hamilton, The Fugees, Kid Cudi, and Chronic Future. Eclectic bunch, had nothing to do with christmas, but shit, its great music. I don't really want anything tangible this year. I think I'll just buy myself my next tattoo. I want something huge on my back.. but its got to be great. I hate meaningless tattoos. Waste of ink, and a waste of skin. I'm about to hit up Barnes & Noble's, so i can drink hot chocolate and eat a giant rice krispie treat. More Later. I leave you with this.

Huddle Formation/ The Go! Team

Body Language

2008-11-30T14:49:00.005-05:00

"I think I have a problem, I think I think too much."
-Maria Mena,"Fragile"

My mind is kicking the shit out of my skull right now. There's an ocean in my stomach that is swelling up into my throat. I guess this is body language. Leroy says I should only use my mind when I need to. I use it too much, thus, headaches and nausea. I should lay down, but my ipod died. So its charging and then coming to bed with me. I want to sit and talk to someone. Well, I don't want to talk. I feel like listening. To a life story. Without being expected to say anything. Tell me yours?

Horn Song / Suckers

So About This Blog..

2008-11-30T12:14:00.004-05:00

Shit, I just realized I started writing in this without introducing myself. I'm Dominique. I love music and art and life. My mind is different than most minds. In a good way, I think. This is where my random thoughts are going. I'll always post music with them. I write poetry too, I'll post some of that eventually. Enjoy it. Oh, and I listen to almost everything, so don't expect one genre. word.

Windows Media Player / Charles Hamilton (This Guy Is The Blogger Kingg)

It's raining.

2008-11-30T11:54:00.003-05:00

I didn't want to leave my bed, but i did. I wish rain didn't make noise, it would be so much more beautiful. Then again, I also think the sky should be violet. Ugh, I have to so much work to do today. Let's see if I do it. My dad's supposed to come see me today. Let's see if he does. Blah, Im going to heat up some cold pizza and watch a movie. Later.

3rd Planet / Modest Mouse

Sunday Begins And Monday Haunts Me.

2008-11-30T00:30:00.002-05:00

What am i working for? A future that i am uncertain about? It's in the hands of something bigger than me. I'd rather just sleep, and wait. Or write in a field. Or stand at a concert. I do not see how sitting at these fucking desks is going to mold me into a better person. I've never been mold-able (bahhh, inventing words). Whatevzzz. I just want to read what I want to read. Which is sometimes what they want me to read, but I want to read it on my own time, and interpret it with my own mind, and not overanalyze each line, missing the bigger picture. Im rhyming. I'm really going to bed now, promise.

Flowers / Regina Spektor

It feels like..

2008-11-30T00:13:00.002-05:00

It feels like my eyes aren't mine. Like they're foreign. It's weird. Maybe its because I'm wearing contacts again. I think i'm supposed to see things blurred. Like my visions fucked for a reason. Who says 20/20 is the right perspective? Who says everything in the world should be concise and distinguished. I like not being able to read signs on the highway. It makes my brain feel calmed. Anyway, this is what I'm falling asleep to tonight.

Shake Sugaree / Devendra Banhart